Posted: 12/21/2024 Updated: 12/26/2024
Love & Light to my soul group as we traverse these turbulent times…
Thank you for the plate of food, Billy & Cheryl… very kind & thoughtful of you.
Thanks Jeremy & Tammy, for bringing it over to me.
This season depresses me, simply because a lot of bad things happened to my bloodline (which were probably my past lives anyhow) during Christmas.
After accessing & compartmentalizing all my Christmas memories in my head, it seems the curse or thought-form, continues within my line.
The one thing with knowledge, once you obtain it & cross that spiritual threshold, you don’t feel like you want to be here on this plane of existence anymore – it doesn’t exactly bore you, but you feel like you are a stranger living in an even stranger land.
My parents are dead, as are many of my closest of relatives.
Food isn’t appetizing, I have no idea what I want to eat, day in & day out.
The usual human distractions of drugs & entertainment aren’t even enough to captivate my attention anymore.
I feel vibrations & hear humming 24/7.
When I sleep (which is usually forced with melatonin gummies), I vibrate.
I’ve been having some really weird, vivid dreams.
A few times I even realized that I was dreaming but then the dreaming attention changed, or the dream ended & I would wake up, abruptly.
I feel like there is nothing on this planet to keep me wanting to be here.
America: Death by Design – Library of Rick and RIA (RARE Information Access)
I’m trying to be open minded & remain positive so that I don’t manifest anything, despite the countless synchronicities that have occurred.
There is also a quiet rage built up inside of me, that likes to tap into my anger & channel it into some psychic lashing out, which causes things to happen like; people becoming sick or even dying.
The dice are rolled but it’s always snake eyes, with my energy nexus.
This is why, for now, I’m not allowing my powerful energy to connect to anyone, so that they have a chance at life & living out their dreams, far from the curse that haunts me & seems to lash outwards to others.
I’m a self-trained scribe & a “government“ trained warrior, for the most part having lived peacefully, that just wants to disappear into obscurity & become a lone wolf again.
Yet, having the time to piece things together these past few years & using previous knowledge I personally had in 1995… I have a feeling that something BIG is happening in 2025.
So, now my conscious weighs.
I’ll have to hibernate on it.
“Bad men need nothing more to compass their ends, than that good men should look on and do nothing.” 1867 – John Stuart Mill
This apathy that I have developed makes me not even want to bother researching anymore & it’s something I have done my whole life – as well as running websites.
What is wrong with me?
It can’t be cosmic boredom – that’s probably why I incarnated here in the first place.
What is a Soul Contract? – Library of Rick and RIA (RARE Information Access)
Or is it a spiritual loneliness?
2025 is the end of the Kali Yuga, which will herald in a Yuga of ascension.
But it will also usher in an age of Transhumanism, particularly after the alien card is played.